What do you crave?

Well… what is it today?  What do you crave?  Like author Lysa TerKeurst, I believe that craving isn’t a bad thing.  We were made to crave.  But crave what?  If you are one who struggles with misplaced cravings, in whatever area of your life that may include, I challenge you with a question:

Are you overindulging in this craving with a desire to fulfill a satisfaction?  How is that workin for ya?

For years, I struggled, not with overindulging, but in denying my body food.  I had a lofty goal of being a good girl by avoiding, little did I know that my focus was severely misplaced.  Has food become more about frustration than fulfillment for you? Do we realize that God created us to crave so we’d ultimately desire more of Him in our lives?

Made to Crave is a book and bible study offered to us from Lysa Terkeurst, president of Proverbs 31 ministries.  My dear friend Rachel and I are walking through this study with a group of great ladies.  If you live in the Hilliard area and have room in your schedule on Thursday evenings, would you consider joining us on this journey?  For more information, click here.

I think God just might have something wonderful in store for you…

Limitations can be liberating…

To all my friends who find themselves in a season of confusion…

Thank me for the conditions that are requiring you to be still.  Do not spoil these quiet hours by wishing them away, waiting impatiently to be active again.  Some of the greatest works in My kingdom have been done from sick beds and prison cells.  Instead of resenting the limitations of a weakened body, search for My way in the midst of these very circumstances.  Limitations can be liberating when your strongest desire is to live close to Me.

Quietness and trust enhance your awareness of My Presence with you.  Do not despise these simple ways of serving Me.  Although you feel cut off from the activity of the world, your quiet trust makes a powerful statement in spiritual realms.  My Strength and Power show themselves most effective in weakness.

Isaiah 30:15, 2 Corinthians 12:9 (AMP)

Dying a little more every day…

Read a post over at (in)courage today, and it got me thinking…

In the past few weeks, I had experienced what can only be described as death of a dream.  The door that led to an opportunity to enter back into my career field had been shut.  I was perplexed, confused, and very disappointed.  I felt heavy, I experienced emotions, I grieved.  And then…

my perspective shifted.

This “death” I experienced wasn’t an ending.  In fact, it was a beginning.

John 12:24
Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.

What happens after a seed dies?  New life springs up, blooms, grows, and even multiples.  So true!  It’s happening in my life right at this moment… and I could have missed it, had I held onto my seed.  What happens if I hold tightly to a seed in my hand?  No new life, no blooms, no growth, just the potential of a seed, and all the will power I can muster.

What if I let go of my seeds, deposited them in the dark soil, watched and waited for the Son and the Living Water to call them to life?  I would be letting go, but I would be gaining what?  I guess the real question is… do I want seeds or fruit? Do I want hope or harvest?  Do I want dreams or life?  Will I allow God to redeem my dreams, perhaps in a different, yet better way?

Are you holding tight to your life?  Dying literally is not optional.  One day we will all draw our last breath.  Dying spiritually, on the other hand, is a choice.  Will you choose to seek His guidance about your dreams? future? marriage? kids? finances? health? happiness?

Romans 6:4
We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.

All I can tell you is that letting go has been worth it’s weight in gold, every time.  What do you have to lose?

Are you healing?

Yep, doing some reading again tonight.  Simply felt compelled to “talk” about a subject that hits home.  Again, wasn’t looking for a revelation, yet there it was, alive and life-giving.   Tonight’s reading comes from Acts 3.  Here you will find a story that involves Peter and John simply going to the Temple one afternoon to take part in the 3′clock prayer service.  Can you relate?  While on your way to a designed, maybe even routine event, and you find yourself walking smack dab into your purpose for the day? Here we read that the disciples pass by a gate, and not just an ordinary gate, but one named the Beautiful Gate, (wink, wink!)  Here they came into contact with a lame man (lame for more than 40 years).  This lame man looked up, eagerly anticipating money, and instead, he was able to rise up and walk out, instantly healed and strengthened.  The people around him were absolutely astonished, can you image? And then I read this,

Through faith in the name of Jesus, the man was healed – and you know how crippled he was before.  Faith in Jesus’ name has healed him before your very eyes. (Acts 3:16, NLT)

THIS is my story.  One might as replace the words “lame man” with Heather Conrad.  Through faith, in the name of Jesus, we are healed.  I was crippled, my heart that is.  I was not walking, by any stretch of the imagination.  I was paralyzed.  Paralyzed and held captive with thoughts of a performance-based type of love.  A philosophy I lived my life by and through.  If I wasn’t serving Him, how could it be possible for Him to love me?  How can I be justified and seen as righteous?  By faith, through grace (Ephesians 2:8 tells me).  I came face to face with my crippled condition and had a choice to make.  Do I accept that He loves me, not by works or by deeds, but by the simple fact that He calls me His own?  Can I accept the fact that while I was sinning, Christ died for me? (Romans 5:8)  Or do I reject?  Do I forsake understanding in order to accept and receive his gifts of grace by faith?  And what exactly is faith?  Faith is being certain of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see (Hebrew 11:1).  All I can humbly say is if you do, not only will you walk, but you will see, and you will heal. Healing brings freedom, but it often includes pain.  I think of running as my real life application.  At times, it feels as if the Lord has been doing some off-shore drilling in my heart.  He’s pentetrating deeper and deeper to the core of who He is in my life.  This drilling is painful.  Running is painful.  So why go on?  Simply put, there’s new life in pain.  Life you could have never experienced had you not gone through pain.  Pain has an alternative use.  Instead of bringing about avoidance, it can bring about amazing endurance.  The results are worth it every time.  Through the pain, comes release – true, unabashed, life-giving freedom.  Becoming free from the entanglement of sin leads to all things true and right.

…let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.  Hebrews 12:1

Do you find yourself in a place in need of healing?  You’re not alone.  Jesus tells us not to be afraid.  He tells us to come, to confess, and to turn to Him for forgiveness.  I urge you to recognize this need and talk to Him about it.  In talking, ask Him who He is providing as one to share with.  He does provide, most often in abundance… IF we ask.  Will you ask today?  You never know, it might just bring about sight, and the ability to walk.  As always… my ears (or eyes) are available.  Will you trust today?

The grace in my life…

As I sat to do some reading last evening, I came across a familiar story.  Though I have previous knowledge of how this story concludes, I was riveted by a new revelation.  Just love when this happens don’t you!  Ha, this coming from one who craves predictability, there’s just something about surprises.

The story I revisited was the life of Rahab, the Canaanite prostitute.  As a quick recap, her story came at a time when Joshua succeeded Moses as the nation’s leader.  It came time to attack Jericho.  God revealed the plan for attack, a plan that was simply unconventional (Josh. 6:3-4).  Before attacking, men sent as spies found room and board with Rahab.  They were spotted.  Rahab had a choice to make – hand them over or risk her life.  She chose to affirm her personal belief,

…the Lord your God is God in heaven above and on the earth below.  Joshua 2:11

As a result, she hid the spies, and asked for protection when they invaded.  Apparently, the promise given to Moses 650 years earlier was commonly known among the Canaanites.  As the sons of the covenant prepared to cross the Jordan River, people living in the promised land understood the significance of their arrival.  Rahab, however, responded to these beliefs very differently than her countrymen.  Whereas they prepared for war, she surrendered and asked for protection.

But Joshua spared Rahab the prostitute, with her family and all who belonged to her, because she hid the men Joshua had sent as spies to Jericho – and she lives among the Israelites to this day.  Joshua 6:25

A Canaanite prostitute, who otherwise would have been stoned under the law recently received through Moses, became an accepted member of the community, an adopted daughter of the covenant.  Her trust in God and her acceptance in the community entitled her to receive a portion of the land promised to Abraham’s descendants.  By surrendering her illegitimate claim to the land and by receiving God’s gracious offer of mercy and forgiveness, Rahab became an adopted daughter in the family of God and an heir to Abraham’s promise.

AND, not only that, a young man named Salmon saw in Rehab a beautiful woman of faith, despite her sin-stained past, and asked her to marry him.  She gave birth to a son named Boaz, who would grow up and to marry a widow named Ruth, only to become the great-grandparents of none other than a king named David.  Moreover, the Messiah, the King of Kings, would be born from her lineage!  She received grace heaped upon grace and divine favor beyond her wildest imaginings.

In some ways, Rahab’s story is our story.  Each of us has a label.  You may have your label concealed for most of your life and prefer it remain a secret.  You keep the people from your past separated from those who know you now.  You avoid reminiscing too much because your memories and your old label causes you shame.  Perhaps your label is a reason you hesitate to step foot inside church.  If so, consider this:  Isn’t it interesting that when the Israelite spies offered to spare Rahab’s life, they said nothing about her lifestyle?

Abandoning her trade was not part of the deal.  Changing her life wasn’t discussed.  Rahab’s label was not an obstacle to God.  The reality and the embarrassment your label reflects is not an obstacle to God’s grace.  You, like Rahab, are invited as you are, label and all.  You, like Israel, have been invited to join God in a relationship initiated by faith, not adherence to a set of rules.  This is the way of grace.  Grace doesn’t demand.  Grace assists.

When it comes to your labels, current or past, God is slow to judge and more than willing to deliver.

Not after you’ve freed yourself or distanced yourself from your embarrassing labels, but as a part of the process.  In fact grace provided you with labels of it’s own: Forgiven.  Accepted.  Loved. I don’t know for sure, but I’m guessing this re-labeling process wasn’t instant.  I’m guessing this was a process for her, and in the same fashion, is for us.  One day at a time, one decision at a time, one moment at a time.  What labels do you have for yourself?  From what I’m learning, it may take a while for new labels to stick.  My prayer for you today is this:

Father, today I declare that what you say in your word, about my friend is true.  You are forgiven.  You are accepted.  You are loved.  Teach us to live life in accordance with who you say we are.  Amen.

If you find yourself in a place where you recognize the need to connect with others, would you consider a place to GROW in Him?  Have a blessed, and changed day!

Shine your light and, let the whole world see…

 Enjoyed such a delightful time of discussion with some ladies this morning during Bible Study Fellowship!  We talked a bit about darkness and light, one of my favorite topics.  As usual, God picks up His paintbrush and continues to add to the pictures He’s working on my life.  Through ladies of all ages today, he truly shed some more “light” on a picture He shared with me several years ago.

As we talked about which “path” we choose in our life, a path of chosen darkness or one of light, my heart paused and asked a question.  Where lies the “control room” for our decisions?  Our first thought may quickly compute, our mind, but I dare to venture in answering our “hearts”.  If we take a gander in there, often times we chose darkness because of a root of pride.  We think we know better and our desires and behaviors follow suit.

In thinking of our hearts as our homes, I picture an actual house.  If it’s dark outside (dark meaning the absence of light), if one would be looking “in” to our house, what would they see?  Well, they would only see the parts that were lit up, or had the light on.  If a light is on, we can see everything going on in that room.  If a particular room, or closet, or some other area is dark, no light shines forth, it is hidden to the human eye.  If God were to look at all the lights in my “house”, what would I hear Him say? 

Heather, looks like we got some cleaning to do?  Come, let me help you.  Bring your messes into my light.  I can help you see that what you’re hiding is not as horrible as it may seem.  I want you to be free of your shame and your guilt.  Will you turn your light on, and let the whole world see?

Gulp.

Well, something within me rose to this gentle leading in my life.  I’m here to tell you… I stand in freedoms I never thought were even possible.  As far as I’m aware (and I continue to pray for the Lord to show me), he has helped me clean house in all my rooms.  I stand with arms wide open, in full “wattage”, simply allowing the Light in me to pour forth.  It’s as natural as breathing.  Now, don’t get me wrong, my windows get smeared every day.  It takes a daily dosage of Windex for the transparency to continue, but my heart is willing, and that’s all He asks for.

Will you allow Him to help you clean house today?  What room has been left unattended for far too long?  What holds you back from flipping the switch?  Stare at that fear head-on.  Call it out.  Talk it out.  Take that step.  Pick up that duster.  Open that door, and simply “Do It” my friend.  You will never regret it.  Happy trick-or-treating!

1 John 1:5-7 

 5This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. 6If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. 7But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all[a] sin.

Been singin this song all day…

Save the dates!

GROW - God Redeems Ordinary Women

A gathering time for women of the community to pray and study God’s word together.

Location: New Grounds Coffee House
Date: Thursday evenings, beginning November 4th
Time: 6:30 – 8:00 pm

A few months ago, my friend Rachel received a picture of sorts, one that she so confidently believed was a vision of something yet to come.  I remember vividly… at the time, we were on the phone.  I was driving home from a conference, I could tell you that I was driving through downtown Athens.  As she described this picture to me, my heart just soared, my smile was wide, my words were few.  This is how my Lord speaks, to hearts willing to obey and willing to seek His will above any earthly work.

As we continued to meet, to pray, to dream, to brainstorm, and make lists, God continues to guide.  Our vision included a community place to gather.  We envisioned an evening session to create an opportunity to women in all stages of life to gather.  We envisioned the beauty of God’s diversity in the ladies represented that He would bring.  We envisioned an atmosphere of having permission to speak freely.  We envisioned a time for His word to teach, and for sharing ways to apply these teachings in our daily lives.  We envisioned a strong sense of belonging in the sisterhood of Christ.

Would Christ have a place for you in this gathering?  I encourage you to pray about it.  Click here for more information, and as always, feel free to ask any questions.  We just ask that you come as you are, come when you can.  God bless!