The perfect shell…

My family and I have had an opportunity this week to simply ‘get away from it all’.  Well, as I’m typing this, we haven’t strayed too far from a wi-fi signal.  A week at the beach is a little bit of heaven for me.  I sure enjoy the sun, relish in anything water related, and simply love an opportunity to tell my children “yes” more than “no”.

This morning my husband and I had a great opportunity to run on the beach together.  As we headed out, I noticed that my iPod was dead, bummer!  Past experiences have taught me – the Lord might just have something for me to hear, over my music that is.  Sure enough, we had about a mile left to go, and I found myself pondering…

While gazing about and taking in the sights, sounds, and smells, I also noticed how often I looked downward, several things caught my eye, but I noticed one new desire.  I was on a mission to spot a shell, and not just any shell, mind you.  There were thousands of shells to look at, I was on a hunt to find a special shell, a unique one if you will, one that was different than the hundreds I’d seen.  I had a feeling I’d know it when I saw it.  This shell would not have any broken parts, in fact, it would be perfectly whole.

I found myself having a conversation with my Jesus…

Jesus, it’s interesting to be on this quest.  Perfect shells are very rare.  If I think of all the circumstances that have to happen in order to keep a shell intact all the way to the shore, I would say it’s impossible.  Yet, I know that if I look, there it will be, right in front of me.

I hear him whisper to me…

Yes, many broken shells Heather, just like you.

Truth.  It resonates doesn’t it?  Yes, I have broken parts, I have wounds, and I have scars.  And I’ve asked for them to remain, as a reminder.  My Jesus is in the business of healing.  He makes me whole, complete.  He is the reason I can run at all.  He is the reason I have joy and peace, amidst the brokenness.

This perfect shell that I’m looking for?  It does exist, He exists.  In fact, He is the one who gives me the desire to seek the One who completes me.  With Jesus, I have His perfect spirit.  In fact, when others are seeking the Perfect Shell, do they see Him through me?  Or am “I” blocking His light?

They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and in this case, the beauty of a shell, in my child’s eyes, are the ones that are broken, and in fact, dark in color.  They see beauty not in perfection, but in wonder of size, texture, and color, with the faith of a child.  May we seek the Perfect Shell today and perhaps ask Him to shed a little light through His lens of perfection today.  He’s right there.  If only we silence ourselves to seek and ask… and see.

Seek and you shall find…

 

Lessons from a child…

There are so many stories I could share about our vacation.  I could list the details of all the fun activities, fun inside jokes, and funny phrases spoken throughout the week, but one occurence that will stick in my mind for quite some time came at a moment that wasn’t the funnest.  In fact it was a mishap.  Something that didn’t quite go according to plan.  A lesson the Lord had for me.  It came to me from our sweet 7-year old… the heart of a child.

To set the stage for this occurence, it happened on a Tuesday.  After dinner, we decided to head down to the beach to snap some family photos.  Well, I shouldn’t say we, it was more of an “I” decision, stemming from a miscommunication.  I had mentioned the idea earlier to my husband, he responded with what I took as a “maybe”, later to find out it leaned more to the “no” category.  As the time came to make a yay or nay decision, he was enjoying a sweet slumber, so left to myself, I voted yes.  Now, back to said decision, I sensed I stepped on his “respect” button and was sensing this through the I-can-read-my-spouse’s-body-language signal.  Anyone following me?  I decided not to address the issue unless otherwise provoked.

Well… on our long ride to enjoy some putt-putt afterwards, I was feeling a bit provoked, and decided to approach the subject.  Let’s just say we had a discussion about our different perspectives and decided to agree to disagree (a nice way of saying we faced away from each other with resigned pouty faces and arms firmly crossed).  Ever have a moment like this on vacation?  So, we finally arrive at our destination, pull into the parking lot…slowly.  Seems as though every family on the strip had the same idea, AND the parking lot was in fact that, a parking lot with no one able to move.  After some clever maneuvering, we decided to drive to the neighboring restaurant and park there.  We parked, walked to the entrance…. and waited.  In the process of the fancy maneuvering, we lost my parents we were “following” us.  We waited.  And waited.  And waited.  By this time, it’s getting later, the girls are growing weary, and as we know, with weariness, grows whininess.  With whininess, my well-intentioned patience starts to drain like a tub.  At this point, neither Aaron or I are saying much to one another, but I sensed we were trying to ascertain the best solution for the circumstance.

I kept thinking, any minute they’ll show.  I glanced at the growing line and the many groups waiting at each hole.  My mind would shift gears and replay each thing I said and Aaron said in our car discussion.  I watched all the happy families leaving and entering.  My mind wandered to the possibility of my parents getting in a fender bender with the crazy parking situation.  Neither one of us had a cell phone on us, we were in vacation-mode, no way to know the location of the other party, and now it’s pitch dark.  We finally concluded that perhaps they drove to another course thinking we scrapped this one.  While deciding to wait just a few more minutes, I felt the small hand of a child slip into mine and I heard a small sweet voice calling me, “Mommy?”

“Yes, sweetheart?”

“I was wondering if you wanted to pray?” “I just prayed, I wanted you to pray too.  Right now.”

Gulp.

“Uhhhhhhh, of course sweetheart.”

And right there, in the midst of the tension, the Lord’s child, given to me as a gift, was right where she needed to be.  Assured by her Heavenly Father, asking her mother to assure God’s plan for our family and for the safety of her Grandparents.  It was powerful.  It was humbling.  It brought tremendous peace.  And honestly, it transformed my heart, set my feet back on the right course.  It brought repentance, forgiveness, and restoration between Aaron and I.  And it was so amazingly sweet.  We ended up returning home, swapping stories with my parents, and chuckling about ways to ditch Grandma and Papa the rest of the week.  The heart of a child…